Blog Update?
What is this? A blog update?
“impossible”, “improbable”, “scandalous” (ok, I’m running out of words you might be thinking). It is improbable, but not impossible. I think often of writing and I’m just not sure what to write about these days, there are so many things going on that it’s tough to keep it all straight.
Well, what can one say, things are progressing nicely, if not as I had planned completely, but I’m sticking to my plan and keeping things moving along, in my own weird little way. A number of people are upset with me for not moving forward as quickly as I could be with things, but that’s ok, there are other people involved and it takes them time to find their way in this sticky and messy situation. I continue to live with my sister and brother-in-law, what a fun time this has been, although I must admit I am getting antsy to have my own space… now the question is, “what will that space look like?” I’ve been to see a few places and they are either 1) too small or 2) too expensive. I fell in love with this one spot that seemed to house my muse, but it was WAY too expensive for me (by about $300/month) the great part is that my “office” could be on the 4th or 5th floor overlooking river and mountain, what a great place to work, write and watch the world go by. The day I went to see this place it was somewhat sunny and the sun streams in through the 4 very large windows, it was warm (good for winter, but summer?) and bright, the whole place was bright, I loved it. OK, I’ll stop going on now, but don’t get me started on the bedroom and kitchen area!
The one place I’ve looked at that was a bit small, but acceptable is in view of where my muse lives, so that’s good, maybe we can meet for coffee (do I have any idea what I’m talking about??!!).
Times like these (separation from a spouse, family, etc) appear to be very difficult on more people than I thought. The stress level that this has created in me, my family and my friends is strange and interesting. It’s all new ground for me to covering and some expect me to have all of the answers. It’s interesting how many people have told me that my decision (see blog posting from October for details) is the “easy” path to choose. I’m not sure that these folks are even aware of the words that are coming out of their mouth.
<----thus begins my rant for today---->
EASY! Are you kidding me! This is in no way easy! My children cry and hold on to my leg telling me how hard it is for them that I’m not there, one of my kids doesn’t talk to me, I have hurt (very deeply) my wife and friend and other “friends” of mine won’t speak to me or in many other ways have anything to do with me. So you can take your easy talk and shove it up your butt! This is not easy on anyone so shut up!
I’m tired of listening all the time and decided that it was time to vent, so there are my feelings for today.
Well, I better leave something to write about later, I’ll try to make another update soon.
Peace, love, blarney,
BS
“impossible”, “improbable”, “scandalous” (ok, I’m running out of words you might be thinking). It is improbable, but not impossible. I think often of writing and I’m just not sure what to write about these days, there are so many things going on that it’s tough to keep it all straight.
Well, what can one say, things are progressing nicely, if not as I had planned completely, but I’m sticking to my plan and keeping things moving along, in my own weird little way. A number of people are upset with me for not moving forward as quickly as I could be with things, but that’s ok, there are other people involved and it takes them time to find their way in this sticky and messy situation. I continue to live with my sister and brother-in-law, what a fun time this has been, although I must admit I am getting antsy to have my own space… now the question is, “what will that space look like?” I’ve been to see a few places and they are either 1) too small or 2) too expensive. I fell in love with this one spot that seemed to house my muse, but it was WAY too expensive for me (by about $300/month) the great part is that my “office” could be on the 4th or 5th floor overlooking river and mountain, what a great place to work, write and watch the world go by. The day I went to see this place it was somewhat sunny and the sun streams in through the 4 very large windows, it was warm (good for winter, but summer?) and bright, the whole place was bright, I loved it. OK, I’ll stop going on now, but don’t get me started on the bedroom and kitchen area!
The one place I’ve looked at that was a bit small, but acceptable is in view of where my muse lives, so that’s good, maybe we can meet for coffee (do I have any idea what I’m talking about??!!).
Times like these (separation from a spouse, family, etc) appear to be very difficult on more people than I thought. The stress level that this has created in me, my family and my friends is strange and interesting. It’s all new ground for me to covering and some expect me to have all of the answers. It’s interesting how many people have told me that my decision (see blog posting from October for details) is the “easy” path to choose. I’m not sure that these folks are even aware of the words that are coming out of their mouth.
<----thus begins my rant for today---->
I’m tired of listening all the time and decided that it was time to vent, so there are my feelings for today.
Well, I better leave something to write about later, I’ll try to make another update soon.
Peace, love, blarney,
BS
posted by blarney stoned at 16:54
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